In A Trance ...
I wake up in the morning and the sun begins to shine
The day did sneak up on the night
But I’m in a trance
I wanna try to stop this life
That's how I woke up this morning ( so called awake )... listening to the pure voice of Klause Miene ( lead vocalist of scorpions ) since this is my new alarm tone ( I know no sane people wake up like that ).... what a change !! ... four days ago I used to have a dying rooster screaming to wake me up... 2 years ago I had an electric guitar squealing beneath my bed to wake me up .... 8 years ago I had Fairouz's silky voice telling me how lovely I am .... 20 years ago this task was my mom's ... but when it comes to think about it .. it was the most beautiful part of my life... and my mom's kiss on my forehead was the ultimate beauty through the old days ... ehm ... that and toblerone chocolate bar ;) ....
unexpectedly this song didn't bring me down .... it gave me a lift somehow ... shaving and kissing my lovely self on the mirror made up my new day ( paranoid I know ) ...
Sitting against TV flipping channels looking for something to watch ...
hmmm I guess I'm tired of policy ... and tired of listening to that everyone is against Syria ... and tired of injustice ... tired of being guilty as charged regarding how Mr Bush Judging us... and sick of defending innocence ...so let's drop the news channels....
aha music channels ... ow is there a song that does not contain porn ... I dont mind it but... I don't prefer it as a breakfast .. actually macaroni is better in the early morning ;)
shopping channels ... even of all the lies in there still it's more realistic than our lives ... and after all girls there are more decent that the girls in movies channel
sports hmmm I guess I'm too young to watch that and I still can practice sports so why watching while I can be a part of it ...
cooking channels .. yum yum... something good to learn.. but naaah I'm hungry and don't wanna make it worse ..
AHHHHH Finally something to watch ............. CARTOOOONS :D
eh wallah eh wallah .. i sat there with eyes hang on the TV screen with a big plate full of food I dont even remember what it was .. ( I was half asleep remember!! ) ... watching the new complicated meaningless cartoons ... and drowning into an ocean of meaningless thoughts... two year ago it was " the family guy " , "Beavis and Butt-head " .... 8 years ago it was " Dexter's lab " , "cow and chicken" and " the Simpson's " .... 18 years ago it was " Tom & Jerry " and " Popeye "
OH God ... I must wake up and out of this whirligig that I'm putting my self into everyday ... and start searching ... searching through these carousal and carnival arcades... searching everywhere from steeplechase and palisades ... and any shooting gallery where promises are made... but searching for what ?? .. that's a hard questions as well
Searching for a home ?? searching for a life ?? searching for a street ?? or searching for the boulevard of broken dreams ??
I guess I know what I'm searching for ... since I've got the lovely Damascus as a Home ... and I have my so called life... and finally I can go out walking to find a street and a boulevard... so I'll go ahead for what i'm searching for ...
Walking down the streets... the early breeze hits my face and make me lose my sense of direction.... hoping to find what I'm looking for ....
OH God .... I just woke up... and here I'm standing on the holy ground of my home country ... the smell of the air ... the feeling of the floor under my feet ...the song of the birds up there... they all remind me how much i do adore this place.. it's the place that feels like a proud home land ... this land that can stand against other countries .. those countries that were described by Nizar Qabani with :
There are countries whom are frightned by birds cooing and wind's guffaw among the trees... mobilizing their army to kill the moon
watching TV and being toyed by Media didn't get my mind numb.... and I'm able to think well and say NO ..
No ... No one will take this from me ever.... I'm asking for liberty ....
the same liberty that Benjamin Franklin asked for when He said :
Those who give up essential liberties for temporary safety deserve neither liberty nor safety.
that's why I'm saying No... and asking for mere justice
the same Justice and liberty that (Gibran) asked for when He said :
Where is the justice of political power if it...marches upon neighboring lands, killing thousands and pillaging the very hills?
Nor shall derision prove powerful against those who listen to humanity or those who follow in the footsteps of divinity, for they shall live forever. Forever.
I'm a Human being and I will be heard out ....
So Let's be Heard ... and Wake up from that trance .... Dont You wanna wake up guys ??
Posted by GraY FoX at 10:50 PM
10 Comments
this is how i wake up . this is how i get lost in the morning and i wanna wake up right.
I've never expected to find such a creative guy in Syria , this was really touching and made me feel how good Syria can be.
Could you be right ?
Is Syria really like that ?
Unfortunately people like us can not control the world policies , but at least we can be effective enough to make a change , so keep it up .
Lek AAAH my dear friend...u can't be more right...but don't u think that waking up to "scorpions" is a lil bit too much?!...Bless u...
my hero Malcom X once said about the media:"They put your mind right in a bag, and take it wherever they want"...hopefully till now they weren't able to do so...or we wont be here talking about serious issues instead of keep staring at TV porn n' all the aimless n' meaningless stuff...am not saying that we can't enjoy it...we all do...but Like u said we r smart enough to know when to say NO...So my friend...AM UP...n' WE SHALL LIVE FOREVER! n' forever more...
i just wanna tell our friend George here hi!...n' u w'd be surprised how creative Syrians can be...Wither in a progressive or destructive ways...hopefully we r the progressive ones :)...
amazing dude .. u touched me n moved my feelings towards my home country syria
I aint living there right now n when u talked about home thing I almost cried
go on like that
Hey.. I'm finally back from the dead. YAY!!! :p
Anyways, let me talk about more important issues.
You know something? I totally can relate to what you're saying apart from waking up to the scorpians. Being here in the UAE, I usually wake up to my cat's butt in my face as she hits me with her tail. In Syria though, it's different. I wake up to the sound of the telephone ringing. Usually it's a relative checking if I'm still a live since I have a nasty habbit of disappearing for a while.
I'll have to admit though... I love Syria so much. I cried on the plane coming back to the UAE. As soon as I got back here, I missed Syria. I still now look at the buildings here and say, this has no culture, this is all modern with no sense of identity. Good thing I got a job in Syria and I'll be living there for a while. We'll see what'll happen. I'll either go crazy or I'll realize more that there's nothing more beautiful in the world than my homeland.
Yeah, you know what? I stopped watching the news myself. What's the point. I hear the same thing again and again but the only difference is some of the details. People dying here and there and blah blah blah... I'm not belittling that people are dying. It saddens me a lot but how much can a person being take?
And the videos clips out there. Oh don't get me started. I hate them all. I mean what happened to decsency?? I guess it's what they believe that sex sells. But why the brainwash?? Our lives doesn't revolved around it.
Hey Iyadoooo, I told you you're a good writer. Even our friend George here thinks you're good. :P Good thing you started blogging. Glad to have you on board.
thank you guys for your comments .. I do appreiciate every single word
cute nk2 ... thanks amourah .. and i'm sure that you have the will to wake up when needed :D
dear george ... thanks for passing by... still one in a million of american people will not be enough to know what is syria :)
Sharks .... thanks sweety.. well malcolm x is a hero for everyone who can make a change and i'm sure that you can make a change ;)
rasha ... welcome here.. and thanks for the comment.. and hope that you'll be back to syria soon ...
stellar ... you are the nicest and i'm sure that you are the best example of the syrian good girls that still love their country no matter where they travel around the world..
thanks again everyone
Well, I try but to me Syria is the most magical place on earth... Maybe because it's really my origin. Actually if I want to get deep into it. My origins are in the Saudi Arabia area. I have no idea how we ended up in Syria, further more, I don't know how I ended up with the fair skin and blue eyes. All I know I got them from my Kurdish great grandmother.
Anyways, I'm not too sure if I'm a Syrian "good" girl. Hehehehe... You're right though I still love my country even though I lived all over from the US to the UAE to Malaysia. I can't believe I'll be living in Syria soon, I never thought so in my whole life that I'll be doing that. I'm soooo excited.
WOOOW...that is really great ...
you are an artist really...
i love the little touches you have... :)
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